Oh my friends I've returned to Sister Winter

Oh my friends I apologize, apologize

I hate indifference. It really is the worst state to be in.

But that's where I am this season.

I have not gotten into the "Christmas spirit" this year, and doubt that I will be.

I'm not especially sad, though sadness and grief have struck my community. I'm not angry. I'm not anxious. I'm just....apathetic.

I hate that trait in others, and therefore don't enjoy seeing it in myself either.

I feel numb. Not in a bitter way, just--I'm not. feeling. anything.

And I know where this feeling is coming from. It's due to a distance from God that needs some attention.

This break was going to be alot about getting my foot in the door and finding jobs, volunteer opportunities. Now, I think I have a new focus. A more urgent one.